I haven't been able to get on here the past couple of days... but I'll try to tell ya how I've done.
Saturday was a good day - I ate VERY well. When I had a craving for sweets, I opened a can of fruit cocktail instead of finding chocolate or even eating a bowl of super sweet cereal. It was okay... certainly helped my sweet tooth! I weighed in on Saturday with a 6 lb weight loss for the week. Not being on a real 'diet'... I was THRILLED.
I had a talk with my sister Katie who told me that her diet doctor told her when she first got there that she didn't eat enough... she needed to eat more often to speed up her metabolism. She told me about looking for low-fat, low-calorie snacks. She also told me I needed to eat breakfast in the morning. I HATE that because I don't want to get up early enough for that. But... if it'll help kick-start my metabolism, I'll do it! I bought some raisin bran and we'll see how that goes.
Today I had nothing for breakfast - but had the raisin bran for lunch! I skipped dinner because we were running around with the kids all night then had bible study. At bible study I had a few of these baked chips kinda things.. and I do mean a few... like 5 or 6 chips, along with a dip thing that had spinach and some kind of sunflower seeds or something like that in it, and two bite size pieces of chocolate. Not much of a dinner. It's 10:50 PM now, and I am STARVING. I'm trying to decide if I want to eat or just drink water and 'push through' the hunger. I also have a HORRIBLE headache - which is probably food-related.
I haven't weighed myself today, so don't know what I am now. Although I'm not going to weigh in every single day.... it fluctuates too much and I'm just going to post on big losses or gains or whatever it may be I feel like doing at the time.
I should run. I might go find some fruit or something! Either that or drink a ton of water.
Or maybe both!
Monday, January 12, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
FNPN
Well, it was FNPN last night, and I did really good all day - and night. I had a total of 2 half liters of water... not enough for the day, but at least I did something. Again I had no breakfast, for lunch I had half a sandwich (ham/turkey/swiss), no chips and a half a coke. Later in afternoon I had a cup of coffee. For dinner Michelle made grilled chicken and asparagus - and I had only water to drink. I have to admit I expected to get on the scale last night and see a tremendous weight loss... but I didn't. LOL - Going to take a bit longer I suppose!
Honestly... I had an awful night last night - NOT because of Michelle but because of one of the kids. This morning I woke up and I feel....... beaten. Like nothing is worth it. I hope I don't lose control of my eating today because I'm so sad. As I type that... I really don't care how I do with eating today. I'll tell you later how I did.
Honestly... I had an awful night last night - NOT because of Michelle but because of one of the kids. This morning I woke up and I feel....... beaten. Like nothing is worth it. I hope I don't lose control of my eating today because I'm so sad. As I type that... I really don't care how I do with eating today. I'll tell you later how I did.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
One Day At A Time
My friend, Michelle, is on a big new diet. She's getting shots and pills to lose weight, as well as keeping a very strict diet. My sister Katie also just lost weight doing the same thing... only not so strict on the diet. Katie looks fantastic... not too thin, not too fat.
I have been thin before. Not too terribly long ago as a matter of fact. I had Gallstones and didn't realize it. I was going 4 to 5 days without eating... and when I did eat I ate only sweets because it didn't hurt so much for some reason. I literally thought - every single day - that I was going to die. My body was so tired... malnurished... I was skin and bones, quite literally. After the surgery, I still had problems. When I ate I had horrible... let's just say 'digestive problems'.
For years after the surgery I would have these problems after eating. I chose to eat very little... once a day at the most... to avoid these problems. I didn't eat out because I'd be in the bathroom about 10 minutes after eating and be there for a long time. I did find - again - that eating sweets did not mess with my tummy as much. The doctor I was working for at the time said it was because the sugars digest quickly... less 'work' for the stomach. At my lowest weight I was about 120 lbs soaking wet. Maybe that seems like a lot for some people, I'm 5' 5".
It was surprisingly easy though to not eat. Sure, initially it was because I was in pain, and then because of the horrible problems I had after eating. But... once you get past your first few missed meals, it becomes really easy. After a day and a half of not eating, I wasn't hungry anymore. I only ate because I know I needed to eat something to not die. I wish I were kidding about that.... but I'm not. One boss I worked for was going to pay for my gym membership. Why not? I looked trim and lean, right? He figured I could go to the gym and talk up his business. But I didn't take him up on it because I knew that working out while not consuming any calories would be VERY bad. The few calories I did have were just enough to keep me going.
I finally realized, after being told I'd have a financial bonus if I ate lunch with my work team every day (and doing it of course because I wanted the money), that if I ate lunch and dinner every single day... I didn't have as many tummy problems. Go figure. I was just in a horrible downward spiral... for YEARS.
However, when I started eating twice a day, I began packing on pounds. A nutritionist I went to told me that it would be YEARS before my metabolism caught back up with me... if it did at all. I had messed everything up for so long... for so many years... that now my body didn't know what to do with the food it was given. It just packed it on and saved it for later.
When my sister's kids moved in with me 3 years ago I was at my highest weight ever... I'd say about 225 lbs, a size 20-22.
After they moved in, I've been trying to take better care of myself. I eat every day... twice a day at least. I lost, at one time 40 lbs, just by drinking tons of water. Nothing else... just water.
I've now been hovering around the same weight. 185-195 for a year or so now. I'm now in the 190's... some mornings 192, some mornings 197. My clothes have been a size 16 - 18 for a year or so now. Sigh....
So, I've decided to make it a more positive new year and work on becoming more healthy. I'm not going to do anything fancy... not going to do the pills and shots (as if I could possibly afford it!) I'm going to start eating more healthy... move veggies and fruits... less sweets and alcohol.
I decided to open this blog to talk to myself about it. I'll be brutally honest here because nobody's reading it anyway. LOL
I'm NOT going to do anything radical... even though I might feel like I want to because my friend is losing so much weight. (12 lbs in two weeks?? OMG!) But... I don't want to lose it radically... I want to lose it right... make healthier choices... and BECOME the new me.
I've already started serving fruits with dinner. I find it is an alternative to having another piece of chicken or whatever. I'm also using a LOT less butter to cook with.
My problem has never been too much food. I do not feel that food controls my life. I just eat the wrong things... and I eat too late at night. Here's what my day usually looks like: no breakfast, lunch consists of either a peanut butter and jelly sandwich or cereal (a sweet cereal) or a healthy choice meal, and dinner is usually something like chicken, mashed potatoes and corn or green beans. I will also have wine several nights a week, and I look for sweets after 8pm. Not a ton... just a little something. But I know that eating the wrong things and eating too late are my big problems.
IF I can change those TWO things... I will have the body I want... I know it.
I should mention that I have brownies cooking as I type this.
Yeah... I have a long way to go.
Here's my food journal for today:
Mid morning: Cup of coffee
Lunch: Healthy choice sweet and sour meal (360 calories, 3 gm of fat - good stuff!)
After lunch snack: Several scoops of stupid cake frosting. DANG IT... so much for a healthy lunch!
Dinner: Slice of pot roast... maybe 4 or 5 oz, mashed potatoes, and carrots.
Oh, and like I said... brownies are in the oven for the kids, and I just know I'll have ONE. It's now 8:20pm.... I'll try not to eat it after 9.
Water: only about 1 L of water (two .5 liter bottles)
Hopefully I'll do better tomorrow.
I have been thin before. Not too terribly long ago as a matter of fact. I had Gallstones and didn't realize it. I was going 4 to 5 days without eating... and when I did eat I ate only sweets because it didn't hurt so much for some reason. I literally thought - every single day - that I was going to die. My body was so tired... malnurished... I was skin and bones, quite literally. After the surgery, I still had problems. When I ate I had horrible... let's just say 'digestive problems'.
For years after the surgery I would have these problems after eating. I chose to eat very little... once a day at the most... to avoid these problems. I didn't eat out because I'd be in the bathroom about 10 minutes after eating and be there for a long time. I did find - again - that eating sweets did not mess with my tummy as much. The doctor I was working for at the time said it was because the sugars digest quickly... less 'work' for the stomach. At my lowest weight I was about 120 lbs soaking wet. Maybe that seems like a lot for some people, I'm 5' 5".
It was surprisingly easy though to not eat. Sure, initially it was because I was in pain, and then because of the horrible problems I had after eating. But... once you get past your first few missed meals, it becomes really easy. After a day and a half of not eating, I wasn't hungry anymore. I only ate because I know I needed to eat something to not die. I wish I were kidding about that.... but I'm not. One boss I worked for was going to pay for my gym membership. Why not? I looked trim and lean, right? He figured I could go to the gym and talk up his business. But I didn't take him up on it because I knew that working out while not consuming any calories would be VERY bad. The few calories I did have were just enough to keep me going.
I finally realized, after being told I'd have a financial bonus if I ate lunch with my work team every day (and doing it of course because I wanted the money), that if I ate lunch and dinner every single day... I didn't have as many tummy problems. Go figure. I was just in a horrible downward spiral... for YEARS.
However, when I started eating twice a day, I began packing on pounds. A nutritionist I went to told me that it would be YEARS before my metabolism caught back up with me... if it did at all. I had messed everything up for so long... for so many years... that now my body didn't know what to do with the food it was given. It just packed it on and saved it for later.
When my sister's kids moved in with me 3 years ago I was at my highest weight ever... I'd say about 225 lbs, a size 20-22.
After they moved in, I've been trying to take better care of myself. I eat every day... twice a day at least. I lost, at one time 40 lbs, just by drinking tons of water. Nothing else... just water.
I've now been hovering around the same weight. 185-195 for a year or so now. I'm now in the 190's... some mornings 192, some mornings 197. My clothes have been a size 16 - 18 for a year or so now. Sigh....
So, I've decided to make it a more positive new year and work on becoming more healthy. I'm not going to do anything fancy... not going to do the pills and shots (as if I could possibly afford it!) I'm going to start eating more healthy... move veggies and fruits... less sweets and alcohol.
I decided to open this blog to talk to myself about it. I'll be brutally honest here because nobody's reading it anyway. LOL
I'm NOT going to do anything radical... even though I might feel like I want to because my friend is losing so much weight. (12 lbs in two weeks?? OMG!) But... I don't want to lose it radically... I want to lose it right... make healthier choices... and BECOME the new me.
I've already started serving fruits with dinner. I find it is an alternative to having another piece of chicken or whatever. I'm also using a LOT less butter to cook with.
My problem has never been too much food. I do not feel that food controls my life. I just eat the wrong things... and I eat too late at night. Here's what my day usually looks like: no breakfast, lunch consists of either a peanut butter and jelly sandwich or cereal (a sweet cereal) or a healthy choice meal, and dinner is usually something like chicken, mashed potatoes and corn or green beans. I will also have wine several nights a week, and I look for sweets after 8pm. Not a ton... just a little something. But I know that eating the wrong things and eating too late are my big problems.
IF I can change those TWO things... I will have the body I want... I know it.
I should mention that I have brownies cooking as I type this.
Yeah... I have a long way to go.
Here's my food journal for today:
Mid morning: Cup of coffee
Lunch: Healthy choice sweet and sour meal (360 calories, 3 gm of fat - good stuff!)
After lunch snack: Several scoops of stupid cake frosting. DANG IT... so much for a healthy lunch!
Dinner: Slice of pot roast... maybe 4 or 5 oz, mashed potatoes, and carrots.
Oh, and like I said... brownies are in the oven for the kids, and I just know I'll have ONE. It's now 8:20pm.... I'll try not to eat it after 9.
Water: only about 1 L of water (two .5 liter bottles)
Hopefully I'll do better tomorrow.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
